MY SELF WORTH

Some days i feel I've made alot of mistakes by shoving all the painful things that have happened to me while being a stripper. i have pushed years of pain to the back and i wonder why some days i wouldn't want to go to work. I used to think i was just lazy. Some days I would cry uncontrollably and i didn't know why. Well anyone would cry if your self worth depended on the amount of money you made that night. So my theory went like this if i made alot of money I felt great about myself if I did not I felt like shit. My self worth was what i was worth for that nite. If I made 800 dollars on Friday i was happy I would blow that, and by Sunday Id be back to work looking for my self worth all over again. It became a viscious cycle.